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an AdDict
living THis life
To my drug of choice -
Drugs and Alcohol
.............When we first met
i THought you were my friend......
I was So young I was Easily Persuaded to........hang out with you.
Before long you were with me almost everyday.
I was AmaZed...... the way you made me feel.
Taking away my sadness and anger.
you just lOcked them up in stoOrage.
Before long........I came to you for EveryThing.
You AlwAys listened.......
You AlwAys told me
what I wanted to hear..........
You made me feel alright
when things were wrong.......
I told MySelf You were the One
for me.
Even wHen you got Me locked up in jail.........
.............................................and tOOk all My Money.
After the first few times................
your were really mean to me
But you were never far behind
and I AlwAys forgAve you
even without an apology..........
When you tOOk a couple aquaintances of Mine
I nOticed.
You quickly jumped in so I wouldn't see your true nature.
When you tOOk my gOOd friend ChARlie...
It truely BROke my HeArt,
and AgAin you quickly jumped in......
Adding More Feelings and Thoughts to Storage.
A couple months later..........
you tOOk my brother...
That devastated me..........
I was ready to Kill You and Anyone you were with...........
It wasn't long before I felt I needed you to ease my pain.
EVen though yoU KILLED my brOther
It fucked me up sO bad
when I forgave you for thAT.
Again
withOut an apOlOgy from yOu
YOU FUCKING BITCH!
You Dis Gusted Me
and Yet you
were still in my life...................
Adding to storage many times without me noticing..........
I told MySelf I would stOp seeing yOu
.......................many
times............................
I told myself it was alright to see you................
as long as it wasn't everyday..............
You made me believe it was alright to see you
as long as you wore different clothes. Telling me that as long as you wore this or that it was alright... Actually had me believing it too.
Now
I realize that you gave me a disease the first time we did it
and I HATE you for it.......
I see that you have given MANY this disease
and I feel sorry for all of them.
I know that this is never going to go away.
I also know there is
medicine for this disease
and I just got the prescription...........
.......I plan on taking this medicine and putting this disease into remission for the rest of my life...........
I also plan to give the doctor's number to
any One whO wants it...............
I will pray for all those who you continue to decieve.
Things have been falling from my storage unit for quite some time, and I plan on cleaning it out and burning it down.
So Good Riddance you
EVIL FUCKING BITCH..........................
I hOpe yOu burn in Hell.
I hope someone kills you soon, so you're not allowed to abuse any more children or adults. Even though that may never happen, I will hope for it for the rest of my life. And by the way.... FUCK YOU!!!
An Addict in this life - March 28 , 2007
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